pmr is coming soon...

its so tiring ...
2 keep studying everyday...
how boring is it...
my mind is kept thinkin tat i havent studied tis n tat...
no peace at all..
even when i m asleep...
i can even hav nitghtmare about tat...
i m so scared...
but wad ever tat i had study ..
it jz doesnt goes in my mind..
i nid help...
i m reli scared tat i dun hav enuff time for all...
i knw tat tis is d best time to study..
but i hav so much tution..
tat makes me so tired..
but i knw tat it is all for pmr...
so i hav to make an effort for tat..
sometimes i even study until i get scolded from mum..
coz i will locked myself in my room..
i jz dun like noise when i m studyin..
mum said tat lockin urself in the room...
n dun go out alot to get oxygen in my brain and all will make me sick..
i knw tat..
but i jz dun feel like going out...
everytime i go out during d exam period..
i oways feel unsecure...
i will oways think tat i didnt finish my studies yet...
i rather stay at home near to my books, even tough i m watchin tv ,
i will still feel tat books r still around me...
tats feels better...
pmr is real close...
n i dunno wad to do..
i m reli scared...
i feeling tat i m getting sick...
sj n gg is d worst subject tat i cant do well at..
i m jz very very scared at tis 2 subjects..
n sometimes bm 2...
my bm is nt reli gud...
so i hav like bm ttn everyday in tis week...
so boring... but i will keep remind myself jz for pmr...
i will try to do my best at it...
to all candidates : rmb to study... n take care... dun bcs of puting so much effort n jz get sick at de exam... its nt worth it...

i m sry...

wei , i m sry...
i duno how to tell u all tis... but i m reli sry...
i knw is not my fault for all tis...
i knw u hav changed , i hav changed to..
but i cant blieve tat all d things tat u told me r lies...
when fwens told me tat , u r jz using me for smtg..
i jz burst out in tears..
u r my best fwens ...
v study 2gether , play 2gether n tell each other secrets...
but can i still blieve u...
i am reli hurt when i heared tis from fwens..
at 1st i dun even blieve...
but more n more ppl tell me d same things...
they r also my gud friends , so i cant say tat wad thay r telling me r lies too...
tis few days , i din talked to u coz i reli dun knw wad to do...
i tried real hard , nt to think , but it is always in my mind..
sometimes i feel tat i reli hate u ...
but when i think again , i feel tat i dun..
i reli wan to hear from u ...
but will i hear d same thing like wad others told me??
or i will hear all d lies from u...
i m reli scared ...
tat is y i didnt talk to u lately...
u kept asking n scared tat i will take u like en...
but actuali when en told me everytin ...
i oni realise tat y en treated me differnently...
most of all is bcs of u...
me n en r best fwens last time..
but bcs of u , v becam different...
n now i treat every1 d same now...
nobody is d best n nobody is d worst...
i will treat u d same like others wei...
i hope u will tell me d truth...
i wan to knw d truth , not lies...
can u giv me tat pls....
i didnt talk to u coz i nid d time to think...
but i hav to say tat ...
i wont treat u d same like last time...
giv me some time , n i will cool down n think...
wad i suppose to do.
i will think wad i will say to u...
i knw u will never gonna read tis..
but i jz felt like writing it...
pls dun lie to me again...
i m sry...
jz giv me some time...
pls...
i knw now u r alone , n afraid tat others will treat u like wad i had now..
but i wont treat u like tis 4eva...
i jz nid to think...
coz u r my bestest fwen last time..
i reli am hurt...
pls giv me time...
dun think so much , k ??
i will talked to u ...
n i will help to change u...
like my fwens wan me to change u 2...
i will try...
sry...
pls giv me time....

yesterday's perfection pmr ceramah...

yesterday was too tired after d ceramah so i didnt on9...
yesterday i slept at 1 n woke up at 5..
omg so tired..
but nvm .. is quite fun...
at 6.30 , went josh house , n his mum took us to usm..
at der... feli , qi , shelly , shi , sin , kit r ad der...
they sat at de second row... so me n huey sat de 1st row...
so scary..
josh sat second row wif them bcs tat is d last place...
de ceramah started wif de study smart lecture..
tat person was so niang..."pondan"
haiz... duno how to explain but... he is omg...
but its funny actually...
den after tat was maths..
he is hansome...n yeng...
n also funny... all d lecturer were funny...
next was bm...
he is quite plump..
n he wore pink...
n he n 1 of d boys in d room wore pink 2..
so they say they wan to form a pinky grop...
haha
then after tat when he wanted to cross de wire which is infront of me...
den he said to me...
har...
dun see a...
den i was like so damn paiseh...
c2pig d...
then v had our lunch which v can only hav like 15 minutes after all d queing up n stuff like tat...
v had nasi kandar n red water... haha..
after tat v had sn...
he was so damn yellow minded...
omg....
but funny aso..
den it was gg...
he was quite fat..
he isnt tat funny like other lecturers but also quite ok...
they didnt giv us de notes...
so v r like copying d board so damn fast bcs de schedule was very tight...
my hand is like droping out...
so much to copy in so short time..
some of my fwens gav up...
they said...
jo anne borrow me afterwards a...
haiz..
nvm..
but i had fun copying also...kaka....
seens i m nt gud in gg...
after tat v had 15 minutes tea break...
me n my fwens didnt eat... but de boys ate...
they were like competing who is de 1st to finish all d food...
josh ate a currypuff oni wif 2s , n drank a teh tarik wif 10s...imagine it...
den v saw d form 5's... they said when they go in d room , they felt like children bcs all of d penang students had long hair.. so they look so mature...
when me n my fwens 1st went into de room , v thought of tat also...
v even thought v went to de wrong room...haha....
n i saw liang wearing a shirt writing a shirt pointing (he is gay)
he kept standing bside his fwens... haha... his fwens kept geting away from him..
den next was english...
she is de oni female lecturer...
n she is pretty.... she is so slime even ad having 4 childs... v didnt even blieved her...
she was funny 2... she even liked 1 of d guy.. haha.. bcs he is d most outstanding 1 wif a hat....
last was sj... when he 1st came in , huey said he looks scary... reali... like he jz came up from d sj book...
he looks like he came from tat century...
but once he open his mouth...everybody was in shock... he can tell u any date of d chapters in d book...
he can also knw all de chapters from form 1- 3... but i duno about 4-5...
v were like kept looking at him.. seeing if he is looking at any of d paper... but no...
he doesnt have any of de paper... imagine... he can even tell u every story in every chapters... jz bla bla bla.... all in his mind... he doesnt even hav to think... haiz.. i jz wish i can b him...
at last.. ceramah finished... actualy v supose to start at 8.30 , but der wer technical prob so v started at 9 n end at 6.45.... i dun even feel sleepy in der... all jokes in d room... kept laughing n laughing until our stomach aches...haha... i wish to go again... n hope to meet d same lectures..
after tat v all went to autocity mcdonald to eat...
v had so much fun der....
n josh ate so damn fast ... like 1 minute... he finished his burger ad...
v took video 2.... but it is on huey's camera... i will upload it when i get it from her....
den after tat v went gia gia to d shops at autocity...
d guys were like so sleepy , n they sat der like crying... coz they kept yawning...
n v girls kept walking... v even took like 10 minutes at d 1st shop ad.. haha...
me n qi bought a specs each , mind is grey n hers is white...
n actually v supose to go bck at 9.30 but end up at 10 sumtin...
my mum was like waiting der like crazy...
coz actually v can b in time... but v lost feli n huey...
so when v found them... they r trying clothes for fun...
so de guys were lke standing outside d shop like a dummy...
n me n qi jz fly into d shop n scared huey... haha...
me n qi aso tried d same clothes but didnt took pic coz v r in d rush but feli took pictures...
she reli look pretty in tat dress .. she look even mature wif tat dress...
after tat... its time go home... n kit , qi followed feli bck ... n sin , josh , huey followed me bck...
so v said gud bye... so sad... d day is almost over... even tough it was very tired but v had so much fun except for d guys.... so sry guys... girls jz love shoping...
when v were in d car... v also kept joking ... haha...
i said to sin tat i will drop him in d drain coz his house was so far... hng... i wan to go home n sleep d... haha...
v joke around...
n huey kept scaring me wif her icy cold hands...
so scary... haha... funny huey...
so after tat drop every1 home... den i help mum to make things to go to dahna... n i slept like at 1 sumtin..
so damn tired.. n i woke up like 12 tis mornin...
my mum almost killed me...coz i woke up so late... so tats all about it... goin to sleep now... hav to go to skul 2moro le... bb bloggy... love u...
ps will upload d pictures later... havent got them... sry...

lecturer from teacher

2day...
haiz...
so boring lecture from school teacher about how to write a karangan...
so damn boring....
not even 15 minutes...
me n my friends ad had watery eyes...
coz kept yawning n yawning...
but after tat is better coz teacher giv out prizes for those hu got a lot of question correct...
but haiz...
my bm is nt so gud...
nvm... dun care...
n v had our recess at 9.45 which is suppose to be at 9.15 ...
which end up having recess wif de form 5's...
i never like going to de canteen...
my friend drag me der...
n tats is my 1st time to de new canteen...
"thx" tif alot...
once der...
friends looked at me n ask...
wa..
jo anne , u will cum to canteen d lo...
haha...
somore giv ppl buly...
wuwuwu...
cant wait to go to our new building for nxt year..
i hav seen our class o..
science 1...
wohoo....
all pink in colour...
de sn lab is 10 times better than de 1 v r having now...
after tat v continued our lecturer by writing an essay in de library...
most of us choose de same question..
n v copied here n der..
tif sat beside me...
v end up hiting each other..
haha...
funny...
then suddenly, de lights went out...
they said one of de eletrical thing burst n a lot of smoke is cuming out...
so v had to finish our essay in d dark...
so scary...
chian sze even feel her legs all cold...
she scared me alot by tat...
seens there is no electricity..
how can she be cold...
some of my fwens felt tat 2..
scary...
aftertat v when back to class n those hu had koperasi meeting had gone to de dewan..
congrats huey for geting d highest vote...
but they r so kesian..
they r having meeting without electricity..
some came bck wif sweat all over...
haha..
den skul ended..
n said gud bye...
2morro me n some of my fwens r going to ponteng skul coz v r selected to compete on an essay writing competition in bm...
no way i m going...
so sorry teacher....
dun scold me when i go to skul..
i dun like bm...
so tats all for 2day...
bb.. bloggy...

Princess protection program

2day...

watch disney channel n saw der is a show on princess protection program...

so hapi ....

i waited so long for it actuali..

princess protection program....

demi lovalto n selena gomez...

demi plays d part of d princess n selena plays d part of d normal teenage girl...

demi(princess rosalinda) , selena(carter)

tis show is about d princess hu was going to be a queen ..

but someone attacked their country ..

n de princess has to be sent to a princess protection program which she has to leave her mum...

de princess is den sent to a place called Louisiana so tat d ppl hu attacked them could not hurt d princess...

n der she met carter..

carter didnt like her earlier but after a while, they bcum gud friends..

carter teach rossie how to b a normal teenage girl n rossie teaches carter tat being a princess is not jz wearing nice clothes n wear a tiara but it is about taking care of ur country n love every1...

when rossie found out tat her mum has to b force to b married...

she wanted to go home...

carter stop her by asking her to stay until after d homecoming...

she agreed...

carter knws tat if rossie leaves..

she will b in prison by d enemies...

so carter plan smtg without leting rossie n her dad knowing..

her plan is to put a mask on n acting to b rosie to follow the enemies back..

but on d way der...

rossie , her dad n d princess protection program agents stop her...

n d enemies were catch...

rosie was very hapi to hav a friend to sacrifice for her..

she said she has found her real best friend..

at d end..

rosie went back to her country savefully to be crowned as queen...

THE END...

its nice show...

watch it...

my fwen's mum bday party...

today i went to my fwens mum's bday party...
i went der about 8.30pm..
bcs there were guests at my home...
on d way der...
he called n ask wether m i going?
i said i m on d way n ask u miz me ad a??
he jz said bb bb bb bcs he is playing game..
omg...
c2pid ian...
when i reached der...
everybody teased me n my mum bcs v r de latest...
haha...
nvm .. its fun..
v r family friends...
hehe...
den eu n ian teman me eat dinner..
then ian smaller brother - den den stills rmb me..
he loves me so much...
keeps sticking 2 me evry time...
hehe ..
his so cute...
den v watch a ghost movie called :" they wait"
is so damn scary...
its about a small boy being taken 2 d unreal...
n d mums has to go to d unreal to take her child back..
watch it...
its quite meaningful actuali..
eu didnt watch it...
he watch about 5 min n he has to go..
so bb...
i watch it wif ian n den den was der kacauing me...
omg.. nvm... his so cute...
dun blame him...
other kids was siting der n watch 2..
some even cried...
wuwuwu...
dun b scared ..
its jz a show...
after tat...
go home le lo...
bought mcdonald for my dads dinner...
hehe...
now here writing dis... n tats all...
hav to off9 early 2day...
going to dahna 2morrow early mornin..
i go to dahna every sunday mornin...
here's 2 photo....tis is me n den den... isnt he cute??? hehe... so cant blame him for kacauing me watching tv....

tis is den den eating duno wad...
ian sent me tis photo...
so cute..
thx ian for sending me tis photo...
even tough i beg so hard for it..
thx so much...
i knw u hav to plug in d usb n smtg smtg...
but thx anyway...
coz i m lazy to plug it in...
so going to sleep..
nite nite...

finish at last...

early today...
at last...
i finished my story book...
i read one or 2 chapters each day till 2 or 3 a.m...
hehe...
its called..."wo ti tian shi lai ai ni"
in english means i will be an angel to love u...
its real nice...
its about a girl liking one of the guy in a band...
but tat guy likes some1 hu seems to died few months ago in a plane crash...
he cant forget tat girl..
but slowly he find tat he hav feelings for d girl hu likes him...
but they both do not knw...
their fwens make them to confess their love for each other...
he confested but the girl refuse to accept bcs she knws tat he canot forget d other girl...
she said "wad if 1 day she comes back...
v 2 r standing infront of u...
who will u choose??"
he said i will still choose u..
but she does nt blieve him.."
one day...
one of d fwen wanted to help them..
he said mayb tat girl isnt died..
lets find a detective n find tat did she survive after d plane crash...
not long..
d detective found a girl hu looks exactly like her..
but she has forgotten everything as when d plane crashes into d sea...
her brain is full of water...
n she was rescued by a fisherman...
one day , their fwen brought her bck to find d guy...
de guy was in shocked n treated her very well seens tat day...
d girl hu like him was very sad but she treated de girl hu was jz found reli well..
d girl has to stay in d hospital..
as she is nt reli well.
de guy said tat he will choose 1 of them after d girl is fully welled...
one day, d girl has to go to U.S. to hav a surgery...
n tat guy wanted to follow her as she is scared to sit d aeroplane again...
d nite b4 they r leaving..
she told the fwen tat ,
once she reached U.S...
she is not leting him to cum bck bcs she likes tat guy 2...
de fwen was in shocked n said tat it is not fair for d guy n de girl hu likes tis guy...
on d leaving day for U.S. , she was gone...
she was not in d hospital n no wer...
all her fwens when all round to find her...
at last...
d doctor came out n said tat ..
actualy she is not sick at all..
when she came to d hospital...
she was ad well..
even tough she had lost her memory last time..
but when she came 2 d hospital,
she asked d doctor to bluff every1 about her sickness...
not a while..
one of her fwen shone up in d hospital teling d others tat she has left to U.S. to start a new life bcs she knws tat de guy doesnt love her anymore...
at last...
d guy end up with d girl he love n d girl end up wif d guy she love..
hapi ending...

watch it....(MUZ)

this is nice...
its about phan wei bo in yu le bai fen bai wif king ge...
its reali funny..
tis is sent to me by a friend.. thx for sharing...
love phan wei bo...
he is so handsome....
i laughed till stomachache..
haha...

Fwens bday

2day is so damn tiring...
3 fwens r having bday on d same date...
felicia n jun kit..
my classmate...
n 1 nt...
my classmate n me help celebrate their bday by ordering pizza's..
bcs feli love pizza alot..
n de most hating part is...
de stupid pizza man din come at 11.45...
he suppose to be
he end up reaching at 12.15..
which skul has ended..
lots of our fwens had to go...
as they go home by bus..
so sad...
me n tiffany had been waiting at de gate...
like a crzay person...
standing n waiting under de hot sun...
jz imagine...
n also v hav to go up to de teacher's room to lend the phone from teacher..
bcs v called using her phone...
thx to teacher also for helping...-pn.soon...
thx alot..
me n tif kept runing here n der like crazy n v r sweating...
omg...
but at last... it came...
at 12.15...
30 minutes on d hot sun...
n he came at de wrong time..
de disiplin teacher is der...
duno wad is his name..
dun care anyway...
v threw all de pizza box inside my monitors bag...
he is complaining tat all of his books smell like pizza...haha
but seems like de day is not rite...
feli cried...
cant say y...
but dun cry , dun b sad..
is ur bday...
bday girl cant cry...
n jun kit duno y ??
like so sad...
haiz...
but v ate d pizza...
n went home...
feli said thx to me...
welcome.. feli...
n jun kit called 3 times...
which i was sleeping.. n didnt care...
haha... sry...
but at 11 smtg... he called n said thx so much to me..
i m so hapi...
hehe...
welcome...
but dun thx me alone o...
there is still so many ppl helping...
so tats all...
HAPI BDAY TO U ALL...

o.. ya...
n pao...
sry...
no present for u...
kaka..
coz u din buy present for me..
blek....
erm..
but my present to u is de longest hapi bday wish eva..
hehe... hapi bday...
even tough i sent it at 12.05....
sry...
i tried real hard...
seens its so long...
sry...
hapi bday....bb...
gotta sleep..
so late ad...

our jusco shoping...

tis is huey in de trolley... n eric behind pui her... kaka... n xin beside ... bhind head like helmet is tif.... v r schoolmates... 3A N 3B.... yeah.... all siao siao d...
tis is huey , li , me wif d black shirt n qi bside me.... xin bhind wif a five...
wen n tif d most bhind d...
kaka...
tis is us again but no huey..she is taking pic of us... hehe....
nice ??looks stupid anyway...
v came outside to take pic after eating at kfc..
v ate alot tat day...
mcdonlad... kfc...
sushi..popcorn...
omg...
but v had fun..

to all my fwens...

thx for everything...
i knw u all had oways wan me to stand up again..
to stop thinking wad others say about me..
i knw tat is all not true ..
but i still hurts me alot...
i tried to not think about it..
but i nid to go to skul 5 days a week...
i will see wad they write about me...
n hear wad they say about me...
i cant do it...
its reli hard...
i knw u all had cared a lot about me..
n thought me a lot...
but i nid more time...
i m reli sry...
pls giv me more time...
i hope u all as my fwen wont betray me to bcum one of those hu say bad about me...
i trust u alll...
n blieve in u all...
i cant live without u all...
love all of u...
*not a poem

Another Chance

I 1st thought u were mine,
but when i think again u were not...
U were oways der for me when i nid u,
but i was never der for u...
U hav thought me how to bcum some1,
without bcuming wad others wan me to bcum...
U thought me how to b hapi,
U thought me never to giv up,
but I never thought u anytin...
I felt tat i m useless..
nothing but jz a dummy standing bside u...
I m never der for u, n i m never ever gonna be der for u again...
U hav left me to somewer very very far away,
but inside my heart ,
u wer oways der...
I hope tat god will giv me another chance to go bck in time,
to change everytin...
I still wan 2 love u ,
to help u , n to love u...
even tough i knw tat u r goin to leave me...
I love u very much,
but tis 3 words aint gonna get into ur ears...
I will love u 4eva...
No matter how far u r...
Nobody can take ur place inside my heart...

Jz B who U r

It doesnt matter who u r...
It doesnt matter wat u wan...
It doesnt matter who u wab to b...
Jz b who u r...
V oways think tat to b d best infront of ppl...
It doesnt matter...
V oways thought tat no matter how , v hav to act n put a mask on , jz to please some1...
It doesnt matter...
V oways think tat b nice to some1 , they will nt hate u...
All of it doesnt matter...
bcs true friends will not matter...
they will oways like u n oways b der for u no matter wad u bcum...
true friends, even tough it will hurt them when they try to help u but they will oways wiling to help...
True friends will oways wiling to b the one to suffer rather than we do...
Jz b who we wan...
Dun care how ppl talk bad about u..
Dun care how many ppl hate u...
Jz remember to b who u r , bcs we hav TRUE FWENS....

Wer R u?

When i first found u,
I saw u as a friend,
I couldn’t stop looking at u ,
Thinking of u ….
I didn’t know wat to do….
You were my friend…
Eveytime i needed u ,
you were jz standing beside me,
When I tripped,
You were there reaching out a helping hand,
When I cried,
You were beside me holding a box of tissue,
Whenever i needed some1 to share my feelings,
You were always there willing to hear it….
Now you hav gone some where i dun even knw….
I tried to find u ,
but u were no where….

I jz wan to be me

I knew i shouldn’t be here,
when I’m here,
I hurt every1,
including myself,
everytime I look in the mirror,
I see a disaster,
looking at me as a devil,
I wan to be an angel,
helping ppl ,
making ppl happy,
but nt a devil ,
hurting ppl,
killing ppl,
I jz wan to be me….

I jz duno wad to do

looking at u,
i see a different person….
but deep dwn…. r u different from others?
or u r jz pretending to be some1,
so tat i will be close to u…i dunwan u to change,
i jz wan u to be u ,
i wan to be friends wif some1 tat i think i feel nice wif,
i thought being friends wif u is like heaven ,
but slowly i saw tat u r jz a normal person ,
n i hated u to pretend to be a great person infront of me…
but can i change u ?
i jz dunno….

Best Fwens

best friends laugh wif u ,
best friends cry wif u ,
best friends will always be there when u need them,
but y ? you , as my friend , when i needed u ,
WHERE R U ?
i’m here alone in de dark n there is no 1 here being a candle jz for me to seek the path….
where is the candle i need ?
or jz de sunlight of some1?
i jz need a person to be by myside when i need them ,
but there is no1…

Myself

who am i ?
who am i inside ?
looking at my reflection n see a stranger….
looking at the mirror n ask who….
what i see is jz an ordinary girl,
a person tat i dunno…
who knws me , if i dun even knw myself….
who can help me undersatnd myself?
WHO ?

believe me...

knowing u is sometin tat i hav done wrong,
being friends wif u is a step foward to hell,
i taught u r my friend,
y didnt u believe me,
bcs of another person , u hav change,
2 of u betraying me,
nobody knws …
hw much it hurts when best friends betray u…
i hav known u a long time ago, but jz a few words…
can change de friendship v had build since young…
i jz wish u could believe me,
i dun care hw much it takes…
tat is all i wan….