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Friday, August 27, 2010

i m frustrated ....

nt even 2 weeks... there sad faces around , i duno wad to do , but i had tried my best , bcs of u , i hide my feelings , i never show sadness to u , i never show anger to u , bt u had kept scolding me , n u kept doubting me , pls... i hope 1 day u could ask, i hope 1 day u could know , theres oways little little words tat u say hurts my feelings , u r wif me now ,nt others , i knw u r afraid , i m more afraid , bcs i made promises , promises nt oni to u , bt to ur best fwens , wad if 1 day i cant take it anymore , i think the whole world will hate me , all bcs u r the gud guy... all bcs to every1 , u r tat great ... but to me u r the bad guy , u oways hurt me , i duno y , u could say u love me , bt to me , tats jz words , if u couldnt do it frm ur heart , pls dun tell me tat ...when i m nt feelin well , do u kept asking am i okay ?? even fwens tat i dun reali knw , will ask me evryday , do i feel better , bt u never do tat , when i told u i dun feel well , all u do is scold me about ur family stuffs , scold me about the past tat i have , the past is the past , dont u understand ?? i never wanted to tell u my past , i knw u will doubt me , i knw... bt u make it say it , u make it , i cried , did u knw?? no one ever make me says stuffs , n when i say it , u didnt thank me for saying , u scold me for my past , scold me for having such a past , n everyday u suspect me even more , u r nt the CSI or anytin u knw? i hated to live in such life , everyday the same thing , ENUFF ALREADY... i m tired , she said sry to me bcs of she done smtg wrong , she trusted u , bt seems tat v saw the wrong person in u , u told me i can stil give up if i want ,even tough its jz words , bt i cried , i tried so hard n u told me tis , u scold me for nt having much time.... n everytime u boss me around , if u wan a maid , hire a maid ... i m nt ur maid... pls note tat .. u r oways asking me to do tis n tat ... sry , bt i hate tat...
如果一个男人真的爱你,他会让你开心快乐,舍不得让你流泪。。。
when i saw tis , i tought of u again , when i told u , i cried , all u say was sry...
如果一个男人真的爱你,他的手机会24小时为你开机,随时随地让你找到他。。。
u oways leave ur fon somewer... u never cared..
its jz tat i duno wad to do anymore ... to fwens , i oways show hapiness , show tat i m hapi wif u ... bt deep down i m nt even hapi , my smile doesnt feel real anymore.... i have to be a bad person , to make u a gud guy infront of ppl... oni my best fwen knw , how much u did hurt me , how much u didnt knw , how much i did try , ur fwens says tat u changed , n wad did u changed ?? so many ppl side u , bt they never knew hu was the 1 tat did wrong , they never knew ... bcs to them , i m oways wrong.. i felt having much pressure wif u , i oways slept wif a bad dream , i dreamt tat ur parents scolded me , scolded me of changing u into a bd person , changing u into some1 ur parents do nt like , i dreamt tat , i m scared ... half is happening now , wad if it reali comes true ? wad will i do?? i m scared... reali scared... wad could i do?

我不是碰不到更好的,而是因为已经有了你,我不想再碰到更好的!

我不是不会对别人动心,而是因为已经有了你,我就觉得没必要再对其他人动心!

我不是不会爱上别的人,而是我更加懂得珍惜你,能在一起不容易,已经选定的人就不要随便放手!

世界上的好人数不清,但遇到你就已经足够!

即使你不是最好的,甚至不是最适合我的,但却是我最珍惜的!

缺点可以改正,性格可以磨合,但机会失去了就再也没有了!

有人说:爱,是一种责任!

现在我才明白,原来责任,就是一辈子!

wo xi wang wo neng jian ci dao di , xi wang ni bu hui rang wo gai bian xin yi


Saturday, August 21, 2010

bck for blogging... (MY PAST N MY LIFE)

sry for nt updating... bt i m bck now...
evry1 hav a past , i hav a very unsual past , smtg tat makes me rmb evrything so clearly...
y humans oways jze rmb sad things more than hapi stuffs?? most of our brain rmb past tat hurts us , bt memories of happiness is jz like a pinch of salt , so hard to rmb evrything?? frm my past , i learn alot.... i fell down alot of times , but now tis group of fwens , help me stand up , make me a better person , i love them alot ... in tis year , things happens very usually , i duno how or y ?? GOD took my beloved dog away frm me... i miz her still.. evrytime ppl talk about her , i stil put a smile on my face thinking u all wouldnt hurt me.. but everytime APRIL comes into my mind... all the scene of me n her shows clearly in my mind... i try nt to think bt sometimes , i would call BABY as APRIL... tis hows clearly i made baby as April's shadow , i didnt knw y april hav to leave me so early , bt mayb she gav me a better gift , tat is baby... things happend so dwen... is like life has been plan, is like baby is meant for me...
after all tis sadness , there r also happiness... my birthday... its the best bday i ever had... i was quite dissapointed at 1st , bcs evry bluff me tat they wouldnt cum , bt it was actually a surprise party , n more surprisingly , evry of my fwen came , even those hu arent so close , when i saw her, i was shocked , i dint knw she would came, v hav bad n gud memories , bt seems like v couldnt go bck to the past like v were so close like b4... it isnt the same... when i saw her , words cant describe how i feel... it shows tat , v r stil fwens , even after a big war... i m hapi tat she came , bt i didnt knw how to express myself , i m jz very very hapi...jz a simply card she gav , makes me smile so brightly tat day... n also very hapi tat my fwens make a big effort to throw a birthday party which was so amazing... every presents shows how much they loved me... evry presents they gave me has alot of effort inside ... i jz love them sooooo much....
so after all tis happend , bck to sadness... there so much tat i couldnt jz say out , i never express myself... but when all tis sadness happend , i found u , u came into my life... u felt so dwen , u make me hapi , nt jz hapi , u make me changed , u made me learned how to love myself even more ,n love ppl hu love very much... u taught me alot... even tough its hard tat u dun even knw hu i am , bt i will try hard , bcs i will try nt to hurt u... i couldnt bare to hurt u... bt things gets more n more complicated, fwens are jealous , hurt , sad... i jz duno wad to do , i try hard to please every1 , bt i m tired ... i jz want myself to be hapi , bt i jz cant do it ... i wan every1 to be hapi , bt when do tat , i hurt myself even more... i jz duno wad to do , mayb bcs i love them so much , tat i can hurt myself for them... i reali work very very hard , bt things r jz same... i jz duno y , n how?? n u , my beloved , dont even knw wad i m facing rite now , i jz wish he knew , i jz wish u would care for me even more , bt all he ask is jz more time for him , n more love n more words frm me... tats nt wad i wan... i jz wish some1 would knw.... i jz wish u would try to understand me more... i dun blame u... i will try hard...